Just like Jesus called Mary Magdalene by name, I know the moment He called mine.

I did not document the day, but I had spent maybe close to a month being bombarded by message, scripture and worship that was very pointedly themed. I began to notice, but not fully understanding what was happening.

As a side note, God has done this to me over other things since, so He never stops working.

Then one morning, I was in the shower getting ready for work…you never know when you’re going to be struck down…and was listening to worship music and there it was, yet again, a song lyric that was right in line with what I had been being pelted with already and for some reason, that was the moment that my vision cleared and I was flooded with visions of every single step over the prior 2 years that God had answered my prayers and had been working continuously and providentially, using my circumstances, to get me to that moment in time.

There in the shower, I broke down and started telling Him how sorry I was for not seeing Him. I was so broken and so clouded by all of the fires, the wrongness, and the pain that I couldn’t see Him at work.

He did all of that DESPITE my lack of faithfulness and my lack of gratitude. Despite it.

I never want to be who I was before. A good person, yes…but not whole and lacking.

That kind of love, is unfathomable. For every earthly person who I had tried to perform for to gain their love or approval, each time to only not live up to some impossible standard and to be left and discarded, God’s love cannot be be shaken and will not be withdrawn because I will never live up to a standard…with God, there is no standard except to believe and repent and love Him first in everything. ♥️

“Thus says the Lord who created you, and He who formed you: ‘Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name. You are mine.’” Isaiah 43:1