“May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭19‬:‭14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Dear Father God,

We should start our prayers to you in praise of you, but not as a means of gaining favor, but because you ARE the only truth. There is nothing more pure and honest than your love for us. You are sovereign and mighty, and although I lived for years thinking you were an angry God who could be disappointed, I love that I can now see that yes, you are mighty, but you have a gentle hand and are forgiving because you know we will never reach perfection on this earth while we walk in the flesh.

Most recently, I have gained more understanding of what Paul meant when he spoke about doing what he hates and not doing what he wants to do, the things that please you rather than falling to sin.

I understand more and more that I need to not just accept your forgiveness and proceed forward, but also I need to extend that same grace to myself. If I cannot forgive myself or love myself, how can I follow you and do as you command and offer the same to others? I am no different than my neighbor. To withhold from myself in that way just because it is me, am I not sinning and doubting you and your perfect gift?

Help me to continue to clear my vision, help me to continue to understand and see myself through your eyes. Help me to remember that my struggle in sin and my conviction is proof of the spirit in me. Help me to continue to expand my knowledge in your word and to write it on my heart that it will be there whenever I need and wherever.

May the Holy Spirit continue to lead me, hold my hand, and guide me in understanding and wisdom. May He also give me discernment to know what is from you and what is not, but also give me the strength and courage to stand in it.

Please forgive me for failing to understand and for falling into the pit of self pity at times because of my flawed thinking and my deceitful heart. My heart is full of love and wants to give, but it also is foolish at times. Please protect me and my heart!

Father, you have blessed my life through the years so abundantly and I cannot understand why, when I have not been as faithful to you. But then I remember that all it takes is the tiniest seed of faith to move mountains and I know that is why. I know that you saw in me that tiny speck of light and that deep inside, I wanted to know you and to accept you into my life.

I can see now, even in the fires I have been through that you have continually walked with me and have continually blessed me beyond measure with your provision. You have protected me. And your patience!! God, there is NO patience like yours because I see how long you have waited and continue to wait on me.

So, I end this prayer with gratitude. Gratitude for every detail of my life and in which no matter where my free will has taken a different turn, you have worked providentially to position me where you need for your purpose. Please help me to grow and lead me to the people and places where I can glorify you and be your light. I’m still a baby, growing and learning and I need you forever. I love you and I thank you, in the name of Jesus, I pray Amen!!! 🙏

“Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭9‬:‭15‬ ‭NIV‬‬