Father God,

I do not have words apt enough to describe your goodness and love. You are almighty and sovereign and I for one do not deserve the goodness you have already done in my life. Yet, you count me as worthy and that is a love I have failed to recognize for so long. Your goodness came through the worst trial I have ever been through, and though I would never want to walk through that again, I thank you for using it to open my eyes more fully to you and giving me the ability to know you in a way I did not.

Please forgive me for misunderstanding your love and for not seeking real knowledge of you. Forgive me for being on the struggle bus every day when it comes to obedience and learning how to walk, and how to surrender. I grow every day though.

Father, thank you for this season of my life. I have cried and been sorrowful and belly-ached at being where I am and the waiting. Father you know me better than I know myself and you know I am terrible at waiting and terrible at letting go. But you never give up on me and you have still been walking with me on the other side of that terrible thing and you have shown me that this is a good season. You have given me what I asked for. I asked you for protection, and you protected me. I asked you for healing and restoration, and you set me in this place right now just for that purpose and I am coming to gratitude for it now rather than seeing it as a discomfort. This is your love for me.

My heart still has desires outside of this period of stillness and waiting, but I am also growing in my understanding that your plans are greater than mine and you have shown me so many times just how perfect your timing is. Had it not been for your timing, I would not be here now.

I may fall and I may forget from time to time, but I am so grateful for your mercy and grace, because you didn’t have to answer me. And I am so grateful for your voice and hand in my life. When I get your Word in the perfect timing and when I hear your voice, the joy I receive from that is like no other.

Thank you for not letting me go to my own devices. Please continue to work on my heart and lead me. Your will, your way, and your timing be done in my life and help me to be a light to others. Please help me to grow in wisdom and to have your Word in my heart.

In the Holy name of Jesus Christ, Amen! ♥️🙏